(Ei ole omaa tekstiä, mutta tämä oli laitettava muistiin jonnekin. Hiukan muokattu, osa jutuista oli moneen kertaan.)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed, possessed, hypnotized and mesmerized by the
one-dimensional picture presentation of myself I see as the reflection of my minds projected ego I see in the mirror every day which I have accepted and allowed
to define myself as who I am
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always want, need and desire validation, conformation and agreement from others I forgive myself that I havent allowed myself to realise that
only the minds ego wants, needs and desires validation, confirmation and agreement from others because of its own inferiority, uncertainty and less than status that others' boost when they nurture my ego in agreeing with me and standing by me
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to
always want, need and desire to be right.
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I
need the ego of the mind to be strong
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to actually think and believe that by coming the ego of the mind, presenting the deception to others of me being superior will actually protect me in defense
I forgive myself that I havent allowed myself to realise that the ego of the mind
enjoys conflict, fighting and arguments and thus will always attempt/try to get involved within such situations to step forth and say: Here I am, this is the ego come try and fuck with me and Ill show you who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that
my ego is who I am and no-one and nothing will change me as the ego of the mind I will bring out my army of justifications, excuses and reasons for not wanting to or daring to give up the ego of the mind I have accepted and allowed myself to become
because I fear that if I were to give up my precious ego I will die, no longer being who I am now
I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to be so mesmerized and hypnotized by my own minds ego as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become that I do not see or hear the world as humanity crying in agony, pain and sorrow of the destruction of the world and existence as me because I believe and perceive this world and humanity is apparently evolving - I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that this world is evolving into the true nature of man stepping forth the nature of man as the destruction of self
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to harbour this self hatred, self anger, self regret, self abuse, self destructive nature within me for accepting and allowing myself to be and become what I have as the mind in this anger, hatred, regret, sorrow, sadness, remorse I blame life and thus I destroy life because life made me what I am and thus I will teach and show the generations to come to be just like me just like mom and dad so we can destroy life together
I forgive myself that I havent accepted and allowed myself to realise that life as who I am is innocent and thus I am individually
responsible for me as for all that I have accepted and allowed to exist within me and have become as the mind and thus that I must stand up for me as life as all as one as equal as who I am as one and equal as all to STOP and discontinue what I as each have accepted and allowed to manifest within this world as the experience of humanity within and as the unified consciousness field to discontinue the suffering of innocent children, the animal kingdom and nature: Till here no further
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I dont have the courage and will within me as me to stand up and say: Till here no further and instead I accepted and allowed myself to conform, shape and condition myself according to the necessity to survive in this world, to be accepted in this world as the unified consciousness field and thus allowed and accepted myself to fall fall in the love of the design as the unified consciousness field the design of marriage and the design of family and the design of relationship in order to be noticed and accepted within the system
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not powerful enough, that I am not strong enough to stand up and say: Till here no further to stop what I have accepted and allowed and thus
remained hidden, secluded and locked within myself in becoming the ego of the mind to
just live out this life, get it over and done with and survive while Im here living the statement: Ah, well, Im here so Ill make do with what I have until I die.
